I know what a pixel is, and how it works. I know that several pixels gathered together forms an image and tells a story. I also know that the pixel-like square images in my social media feed tells a story, but maybe not the whole story.
I have found a couple of different times per day to be the most productive. The actual times don’t matter so much as the fact that they are the quietest times for me, with very little distraction and no interruptions. I can process information and create in relative peace. I found that if I am anxious about some part of the process and distracted or interrupted I have the added emotion of being irritated, and that makes the anxiety during the process worse. I also find that if my creative time needs to be in the company of others that the act of pattern making, such as filling in squares on my grid paper, or drawing squares or cell-like shapes in my sketchbook affords me valuable time with my materials and keeps me going. The most anxious I have felt over the last two weeks was the first five days, when I was really working out the idea and the art activity itself.
I have committed myself to at least one hour per day to sit with my materials, but my thoughts don’t stop there. If I can go longer I do, if not I feel comfort in having my notebook with me, to jot down ideas that pop up, notes, as well as sketching. Sometimes I come back to my workspace and work a little more in between my scheduled times.
An hour per day is not a lot of time, but even so I already feel a bit more confident in my creative ability, less anxious about each new day, and am starting to feel a sense of personal accomplishment.
The above image is my schedule as represented by pixels. The horizontal bar of black pixels represent my daily commitments between the hours of 5:30am and 10:00pm. The outside black pixels represent all of the commitments that need to somehow fit within committed schedule. The white pixel is my daily creative time, that I have gifted to myself in my overloaded schedule.